I love my morning run down Milwaukee Avenue before the rush hour traffic starts. Every Monday, I follow the same intensely urban route to (group) therapy. It’s one of my favorite times of the week (the run, not therapy). I love feeling myself grow stronger every week (at running, not at therapy)– back in December, I was exhausted by the time I reached Chicago Avenue; now, I feel like I could sprint to Chicago Avenue from my house.
I have never been a nature girl. Nature does not “speak” to me– I have tried listening to little birds chirping and mossy trees swaying to find answers to soul-deep questions. I get nothing. Nada. Maybe I get an occasional mosquito bite or a chigger (if I am romping around in Texas), but I don’t hear the whispers of nature singing the wisdom of ages.
I respond to tangible signs. For example, if a graduate program fails to avail itself of my matriculation, I assume it wasn’t meant to be. If a boyfriend moves away and doesn’t give me forwarding information, I will assume he has yet to consider me his “soul mate.” If I find there is a Furla purse on sale in the exact color in which I need it, I will assume that the universe condones my consumerism and blesses the purchase.
This morning, I was thinking some unsettling thoughts and feeling less-than-my-charitable self, and I was noticing myself getting more and more tight (in my heart) as I ran.
Then, dear Nature lovers, I got myself a big, fat, capital S sign from the universe, suggesting a direction I might want to go.
Let Thoreau and his followers have their whippoorwills and their prairie grass. I will take the pavement any day. Yes, I almost got run over by the Milwaukee bus (and did ingest a near-toxic level of exhaust) to get this shot of inspiration to share with you, but I got it. Because I am a giver.
Message received, Asphalt; message received.
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